D is going on his first mission trip in less than 2 weeks!

He is SO excited.

Me?

I’m excited, nervous and thankful.

Excited because he will be traveling with 2 other’s from Greenville and our good friend Austie. She will be teaching 11-13 year old kids at Teen Mania this summer how to share their faith & their testimony’s with other children. They will work in a soup kitchen & put what they learn into practice at local events with kids their age.  I am excited for this opportunity for D to learn about missions. I told Austie, I want her to do this for all my kiddos. And she said she would be honored to.

I am nervous. I know he will do great, but yes, he will be flying & traveling WITHOUT ME. I can’t focus on my fear too long or it can easily take over.

And I am thankful. Thankful that God continues to do great things in our life. Thankful that D gets to go on this trip. Thankful that this is a gift, I pray, will be life-changing.

And so, as I have been thinking about his trip I realize that, sometimes parenting is like walking on a tightrope at the circus.

So many uncertainties…

will I fall?

can I make it?

do I even know what I’m doing?

The fact is…

I will fall.

I won’t always do the right things.

 I don’t know what I am doing.

But having my safety net is the only way that I can continue to walk forward, one foot in front of the other, holding my arms out, and looking forward.

D is going to have an amazing time on his trip.

And even better?

He is going to get to know his safety net a little bit more as I let go of him and he reaches out,with both hands, to God.