Words

Recently I came across some words that spoke to me.

I have a few exciting decisions that I have made this week. So this was very fitting.

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And these words are from an old hymn ‘Come Thou Fount’.

What a great prayer.

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Enjoy your Wednesday.

Birthday Decorating

We’re decorating around here for our baby’s birthday.

She will be 2 on Sunday.

Celebrating somewhere else.

And that is really hard for me.

The flower’s are still so beautiful, Aunt Sue.

I have been selfish this week. Not concerned about what God has done for me, but instead why life is so hard? Why can’t Lulu be here with us? Will it always hurt this bad? Why are memories the only thing I am holding?

And then the guilt sets in.

We are so blessed. There are so many people who luv us. Why am I complaining?

It is a crazy ride and I just want to yell at the carnie to stop and let me off!

The back and forth is enough to make anyone go crazy.

Today, would you say a prayer? A prayer for anyone that has suffered a loss. Say a prayer for yourself {hasn’t everyone lost something}. Say a prayer for me, I would greatly appreciate it.

He made it to Texas.

Yippeee!

{Dylan last night at 11:00 pm – too much energy to sleep}

His sweet little voice called at 4:00 this afternoon to let us know that he arrived safe and sound.

He was very hot but excited.

And then I got a text that made my night.

Thank you all for your prayers for D {and for me} this week.

I am feeling the balance of being a parent BIG TIME. Wanting to keep him here with me and not let him out of my sight, but knowing that this is an amazing gift that he gets to experience. I am still tearing up thinking about him walking down the terminal to get on the plane {without me}. I feel like I have no control, just like with Lulu. And just like with Lulu, God is reminding me that He is holding them. They are His first. Even in this, Dylan is His first.

And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Friday Praise & Prayers

 His mercies are new every morning…

They are new for you.

They are new for me.

And His promises are sure.

That is what I am praising God for today.

Today I am praying for my cousin, who gave birth to twin boys a week ago & was just hospitalized with a blood clot in her brain.

Will you please pray for her with me?

Friday Praise & Prayers

‘I am with you & for you. You face nothing alone – nothing! When you feel anxious, know that you are focusing on the visible world & leaving Me out of the picture. The remedy is simple: fix your eyes not on what is seen but what is unseen. Verbalize your trust in Me, the Living One who sees you always. I will get you safely through this day & all your days. But you can find Me only in the present. Each day is a precious gift from My Father. How ridiculous to grasp for future gifts when today’s is set before you! Receive today’s gift gratefully, unwrapping it tenderly & delving into its depths. As you savor this gift, you find Me.’ – Jesus Calling

This is for me today, I am sitting here in our warm, safe, beautiful  house. Watching Boo jump from couch cushion to cushion. She’s not thinking about our next house. Not concerned about our house selling. Not wondering when the ‘right one’ will come along.

But I am. I am using my thoughts to bog down my mind with worry. Worry that is not helping the situation at all. And worry that is keeping my thoughts off of God.

But Boo,

 She is playing…

laughing…

enjoying her moment here.

Isn’t it amazing how little ones can teach us a thing or two?

This is how I am going to change my thoughts…

 praising God for being with me right here, right now.

He IS enough.

Today I am praying for 2 of my friends that lost their mother 1 year ago on Monday.

And my sweet friend from Texas whose young son has been gone for 2 years, on Monday.

{I luv you, Teri}

I am praying for a friend that lost her husband a year ago on Wednesday.

You all will be in my prayers this weekend, as I know sometimes the’ leading up to dates’ is just as difficult as an actual date.

What are your prayers & praises today? And if you get a chance, let a little child teach you something new today.

Politically Correct

My mother-in-law told me yesterday that presidential contender Rick Santorum has a 3-year-old daughter with Trisomy 18, Bella, was recently hospitalized with pneumonia, so he took a small break from campaigning. I’ve actually only seen one of the debates & know just a little about him, but since finding this out I have been reading up on him  & have enjoyed looking at pics of his family & especially his daughter.

Isn’t she beautiful?

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I’m not sure what is down the road for this family, but I have added them to my daily prayer list.

 

Friday Praise & Prayers

I came home from a meeting last night and O was still up. He wanted to lay in bed with me to fall asleep. We climbed in and he began telling me about the book he is currently reading. Now let me tell you, O is usually our quiet one. He thinks before he speaks. His kindergarten teacher told me that she learned early on that when he had something to say, she stopped and listened, because he didn’t talk, just to talk. He shares because he really has something to say.

But last night as we lay beneath the comforter {me still in my jeans & sweater}, he told me about this book like it was a movie he watched. His details were amazing, like he saw it with his eyes. I could barely follow as he went from one chapter to the next, pausing only to let me take a few ‘mama & O’ pics {I am trying to not just take pics of the kiddos alone, but be in the pics, with them}…

He smiled and went right on talking about the next chapter…

and the next…

God, I am thankful for that moment…

Time to hear Owen’s voice.

Time to let him share his brilliant mind with me.

Time for a little one on one with my 2nd born.

God, my prayer today is for Your hope to shine brightly. May I see You in every part of my day.

What are you thanking God for today?

 

 

Letters to Ana

We got another letter from Ana this past week.

She told us about her family & what she likes to do for fun.

So now it’s our turn to send her some love.

They made little paper presents for her this weekend…

D made her a beautiful 3D snowflake…

O worked on a cross that you fold open…

And these 2, colored pics for her {mermaids? – sure, why not?}…

Praying for Ana as we think of Lulu, especially today.

I know that You are for me…

I need to hear this today.

 I need to be reminded that He is for me.

Do you need to hear this?

My friend, that needs a little bit more encouragement that He sees you.

My friend, that is struggling with work, do you need to know that He is faithful & constant?

My friend, that longs to hold your baby one more time, do you need to know today that He fills you?

I need to speak it into my soul again.

My kiddos may think that this is the only song I have right now – I have been playing it on repeat for 3 days straight now.

Sometimes my soul just needs to be fed like this, with music, with words that will speak to me.

He IS for us.

Friday Praise & Prayers

“Try to view each day as an adventure, carefully planned out by your Guide. Instead of staring into the day that is ahead of you, attempting to program it according to your will, be attentive to Me and all I have prepared for you. Thank me for this day of life, recognizing that it is a precious, unrepeatable gift. Trust that I am with you each moment, whether you sense My Presence or not. A thankful, trusting attitude helps you to see events in your life from My perspective.

A life lived close to Me will never be dull or predictable. Expect each day to contain surprises! Resist your tendency to search for the easiest route through the day. Be willing to follow wherever I lead. No matter how steep or treacherous the path before you, the safest place to be is by My side.”  –Jesus Calling

My prayer today is that I will stay close to Him all day, knowing that His plan is still better than mine.

As much as I am a scheduled person, today I am thankful for impromptu date nights.

Jason & I went out last night for dinner & it was so good to get away, just the 2 of us.

I always feel better when we connect & are able to talk 1 on 1.

We went to Sam’s after dinner {yeah, we’re fancy like that}.

As we were walking through the aisles we remembered the time we had taken Lulu there with us.

I carried her in a wrap against me.

She wore her pink Ohio State hat.

An older lady came over to see her & say how beautifully tiny she was.

We walked around that giant store with the tiniest treasure we had ever been given.

Oh what sweet memories.

I miss you so much baby girl…